Random-3

The crushing helplessness,
the dark night,
I don't know if this battle is even worth the fight.

Never ending insecurities of life

Insecurities of life,
they seem to be never ending,
You tend to loose yourself in this chase of life,
probably its a human nature,
How far you gonna go,
where will this journey end,
you can't predict,
yes you can make heaps of assumptions and perceptions,
but at the end of the day where do loose yourself in these unending battles?
I have no answers for these never ending hopeless questions and nor Do I have the strength to chase things any more,
I probably have learnt that sometimes let go is the only option you have,
not everything can be as per your expectations nor can everyone make you happy.
Everyone is going to hurt you sooner or later,
you just got to trace the ones who are worth it,
Not everything is meant to make sense but someday everything will make perfect sense,
someday even imperfect logics will sound perfect
and someday those shattered bits would give meaning to a selfless unconditional love,purity and a life that would make you feel solace.

Random-II

May be the home I  found in the sadness and pain which you caused was better than staying all alone without you,
Somehow I am that addicted to you.
 *p.s You can say silly & insane stuff when you realize that falling out of love is the only option you have. #Irony#

Random

Bidding goodbyes has been never easy,
never was,never will be
You just tend to accept the pain as a part of your life,
and end up smiling with those wet eyes saying "some day I'l be okay...

                                                                   *p.s I just typed what my heart felt,take care people :)

Suffocated

In the shackles of love and emotional attachments I feel I am nowhere today,
each and every phase has just let me down,
how long do I need to have patience,
how long am I expected to keep calm and wait for the storm of these sufferings to end,
How terrible it is for me to deal with the suffocation I am going through,feels like I am dying within,
The shackles of love have made me weak...weak to such an extent that I can neither trace my ways nor can I figure out my destinations,
I just know nothing is fine....just nothing feels right,
I feel I am nowhere,I can't feel happiness nor I can feel positivity,
all I can feel is an endless n incurable form of pain inside which seems to have been going since forever,
I need the feel of breaking these shackles of pain but every time I try I just fail,
This suffocation is leading me to death....the death which is making me numb with each new moment of life....

The dilemma

Somewhere between I want to talk to you and I want to get over you,
I am still stuck...
Stuck with the fact that may be you will realize,
may be you will fear loosing me too.
May be you will feel the need of this relationship we had,
But at the end of the day I am stuck..
Stuck because I know the doors I have been knocking...
Responses and affection from behind these doors died long ago...
May be the "I want to get over you"  scenario will overpower the "I want to talk to you" scenario soon someday....
      *p.s Not always you can act practically and logically strong...sometimes it's the heart that can overpower almost every right and logical thing.

Grow up!!

When will people grow up and start thinking things normally without their narrow minded approach?
A guy speaking abusive words like "what the fuck" is considered as cool while a girl doing the same is termed a cheap and non-ethical female.
A guy roaming in a group late night is considered as stud and a girl doing the same is named as "uncultured'
A guy flirting with plenty of  females at a time is named as "DUDE" while a girl doing the same is termed as "cheap
Why are there so many differences?
Why do people always feel a guy & a girl can never be just friend?
isn't it just okay to accept the fact that two people who aren't dating can be close enough to share everything?
Can't two people who are mere close amazing buddies talk everything from movies to music..from latest trends to freaking shitty gossips...from stupid pranks to may be even Sex?
Its 21st century..people act so cool n pretend to be very broad-minded but are they really that cool?
Are they really accepting the changing world or are these mere pretentious acts?
It feels awful when I see people uttering mere shit about females who are frank or are open & bold enough to discuss anything.
It hurts to see how disgustingly few men can utter obligatory words for females...why?
just because she trusted you?
just because she used the word Sex in front of you?
Just because she shared some stupid funny non-veg jokes with you?
Why is there so much issue about what to talk,when to talk & with whom to talk?
Is it so important to date a guy before uttering the word sex or 
porn?
Or is it so necessary to date a guy before having a chat at 3 am in the morning?
If a girl is sharing all the small bits of her life with a guy ...is it necessary that the two of them have a love affair?
I mean why??? why can't we grow up enough to deal with the aspect of a male female friendship with no bf gf factor :/ 
Why can't guys stop taking females wrong ?
If a guy can be cool n broad minded 
can't a girl be the same?
Can't a female talk her heart out to a male by considering him as a good close friend?
If still the narrow approach prevails I believe guys should stop  expecting frank and extrovert females in their lives
Because at the end of the day each female who trusted a guy or may be talked things in a funny childish manner is gonna be a hot topic of gossip among a group of guys!!
It truly hurts and feels shameful to face such scenarios....
I feel shattered within when girls who are bold are termed as "easily achievable", "cheap", "slut" 
Grow up people...think with broad perspectives...
Respect every human being for what they are instead of making cheap perceptions about them and bringing disgrace to the affection,care,trust and most importantly to the thing called bond.
 * p.s - I wrote this post with tears in my eyes and also a lot of anger because I feel highly disappointed with what all people out their can manage to speak about females without even thinking once how bad and shameful it is on their part to break the trust and pass lewd comments about females just  because of small pity reasons like non veg messages,naughty forwards etc.