Dad

                                                      Dad

Writing after almost 3 years here on my blog. Life had its own struggles. I was fighting the endless battles. Today's post is about the man I loved the most.. will ever love the most actually- Dad. It has been 6 months since I lost him but the pain is so fresh, always will be. Honestly, when I lost him, I had endless questions. Questions to ask from God, from people around me, from people who loved my dad, from people who pretended to care. I mean I was lost and high on this concept of losing people we love in a fraction of second? He knew I wouldn't be able to able to see him go, so he made sure I took a sheet on my face and those 2 seconds, trust me when I say in those 2 seconds, he left. I don't know what made me so uncomfortable that I decided to take off the sheet I had used for covering my face an decided to check upon him one again. He wasn't there. His hand was still in my hand but I couldn't sense his breath....he didn't answer me...he didn't mingle his fingers in mine....he left me alone.... 

Why do we always lose people we love the most so soon? No one in this lifetime will ever be able to fill this void. He wasn't just my dad, he was my happy pill, my inspiration, my role model, my strength, my forever money bank who never said no. 

He was in immense pain.....I just hope he is in better place now where there is no pain and grief. I miss you dad...you were an exceptional human being who made me believe in myself even in the worst times of life. Be around me always....you are needed...always will be...

I love you, always have, always will. 

~Palak Dua

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