Where am I?

You learn while you grow,
you get to know alot while you grow they say.
Not everything is worth knowing but then sometimes life has its own way of teaching you things.
Childhood,teenage and then you become an adult.
Seeking attention.trying to do all you can to fit in,learning the aspect called survival of the fittest.
But sometimes this journey of 'fitting in' becomes so disastrous that you start losing yourself in this never ending journey.
How long can you do things to make people love you?
they say love is unconditional but then why are we endlessly doing things and making efforts in order to become the way they want us?
Aren't these so called conditions which they still call as unconditional love?
What is unconditional in this?
How far are we gonna keep loving them and keep losing our individuality?
I feel so lost at times inspite being in huge crowds of people....friends,special ones...
Seems like I am doing it all to be with them but then where is the real me?
Those late nights where I cry and moan in silence,
asking myself what am I exactly doing with my life...
but then that's the choice we make I tell myself,
and sleep with another bunch of unanswered questions.............

Somethings never make sense

Somewhere in those dark rooms I still cry,
I cry for those broken pieces of mine which probably I left inside you when you left.
Somewhere during those full moon nights I still look at that moon for hours and hours missing how I dreamt of spending these beautiful nights with you by my side.
Somewhere while dressing up I still miss you seeing me with those deep eyes that wanted me completely with that essence called 'forever mine'
Somewhere while I drive on those roads we travelled on together I miss our togetherness....I miss us..
Somewhere whenever I close my eyes I see you and that's when I feel sleeping forever is far better than waking up to this harsh reality of drifiting paths.
   *P.s some things never make sense,some chasings never end!

The letters that I never sent~part 1

To the man I loved the most,
Its been a while now since we decided to stay apart,
but trust me these days have been more or less like ages,
Its not that I haven't been breathing or eating,
but somehow all this seems to be a mere compulsion now.
I know we are over,
I tell that to myself every night before sleeping....I don't remember when waiting to get some sleep din't turn from night to morning,
Sleepless seems to be just a word that can certainly describe the beginnings of my trauma
You were right baby,
you became everything that I ever wanted in my life,
and when you are gone,
its like losing the entire world in one moment.
I don't know how are you now,
but I seceretly sometimes wish you miss me too.....
I think I still love you.......
With love
From the woman who loved you the most

I lost him though I love him

The myth called love has finally come to an end,
It seems like ages have passed since I was living in that illusion called love which ended on a shattering note.
I don't regret the love I had for that man,
but I surely do sleep with a feeling of defeat every night.
Why was I never enough?
Why was I too hard to love...and most of all why we couldn't last.
With him the answers are gone too.
My questions would probably stay unanswered forever.
I would never be able to trace those reasons of why things deteriorated inspite those beautiful beginnings.
Were those beginings meant to fade?
Weren't those beginnings supposed to create a never ending love.
Why am I not good enough to make him stay?
Was I nothing ever?
Will we ever meet again?
Will I feel his touch again?
Will these memories ever fade away?
Will the survival be easy?
Will he regret and realize?
Will he ever make an attempt to get things back to the way they were?
"NO" the mind said.....


..................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................".I lost him though I love him".............................Said the heart
       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~THE END~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Weight loss+summers=Sounds perfect

Summers are known to be the best time for losing those extra kilograms we all generally put on during the winters.Thanks to those fried cutlets,french fries and most of all Aloo ka paranthas full of oil.

But summer is the kick start to pull up the socks and bring the body back into shape by losing that stubborn fat and toning the body at its best.

 Eat healthy,exercise regular,lose weight is what they say.

Well youngsters have been constantly adopting the idea of crash diets in order to lose weight faster but is that really a good deal?

I mean yes you do lose weight fast in maximum cases but is that how the body is to be nurtured?

Your body is a delicate machinery,you need to pamper it,nurture it in an extremely healthy manner.

Moreover crash diets are something you cannot really follow in the long run as it tends to weaken the immune system and might lead to malfunctioning of other body functions too upto a certain extent while on the contrary if an individual adopts a balanced diet he/she will not have to face the consequences of weakness,bouncing back of weight.

In the case of crash diets not only we starve ourselves but also somehow deprive ourselves from the vital nutrients which our body requires.

A well-balanced diet provides the right vitamins, minerals and nutrients to keep the body and mind strong and healthy. Eating well can also aid in the prevention of a variety of diseases and health problems, as well as helping to maintain a healthy body weight, providing energy and promoting a general feeling of well-being.

   A balanced diet is very important to the immune system, helping to ensure that the vitamins, minerals, and other nutrients necessary to its efficient function are available.

One of the most noticeable benefits of a balanced diet is energy. Keeping your body fuelled with the right proportions of vitamins, minerals and nutrients can give you the energy you need to make the most of your day.

Crash diets are not only hard to follow but also cause a lack of energy in the body which thus in many cases lowers the metabolism rate and instead of losing weight some individuals might start to gain weight,thus ruining the weight issue even more.

   Crash diet not only has adverse effects on the physical front but also might affect the mental health of an individual.

According to various researches people who opt for crash diets experience worse mood swings due to the restrictions on the kind of food a person can take.

 On the contrary consumption of balanced diet  makes you more productive,you will be happier,you will be less stressed,you will eat less yet healthy and nutritious,you will live longer and last but not the least most importantly you will lose weight in a right manner.

Summing up on the note-Eat healthy,don't hinder the consumption of those vital nutrients and shedding weight would be much easier and simpler.

Stay fit feel young

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*P.s this post is written for Dabur honey-Honey diet,a sweeter alternative

Kellogg’s Chocos Ke Saath Khuljaye Bachpan~My journey

You tend to fall in a bad company or a bad situation genrally when there is a lack of freedom and lack of that comfort level between you being the child and your parents,I have always believed in this belief.

The mantra called buddy parenting is what makes children grow in a beautiful manner where they don't tend to lose their values,ethics, freedom and certainly they grow as great human beings.

I have been a really pampered child since the beginning and my parents being my best friends have always been there for me.

From being a little strict to being naughty,from making me do my home work on time to letting me watch cartoons for extra time they nurtured me with their immense love and affection.

I have always felt content being the only daughter child because certainly they have been with me as a friend,a guide,a fun loving companion and most of all someone I can always rely upon.

     I still remember how when I scored less in maths my dad made me learn the mathematics tables one by one for my tests by taking me to his office and telling me the importance of numbers in life.

I learnt them with joy and looking back at those moments still gives me heaps of happiness.

     The instance when I first time went for a solo singing competition and could not win it,I remember my mom standing right there near the stage for me telling me "slow and steady wins the race".

   The time when Cake making contest was going to take place and mom taught me baking the walnut cake with so much patience knowing how much I dislike cooking :)

 The days where I taught dad how to type a text message to the days where I took mom to a saloon  telling her which hair colour wolud suit her perfect,it seemed like we all grew together.

  From sharing talks about my pretty class teacher to the guy I share my seat with,

  from making those paper boats to composing a perfect e-mail,

  from learning to cut perfectly round onions to cooking pasta for my boyfriend

  from learning to manage my books according to the time table to opening my first bank account,

  from confessing my first crush to admitting I bunked classes,

  from those tiny girly gossips to the brands I want to buy,

  from expressing my choice of graduation course to the actual experience of my convocation day,

  from confessing love to the day I made them meet my guy.

 They stood by,stood by me as someone I knew will never give upon me.

 My buddies I call them,buddies for life.

 I have their names saved as PAPA BFF,MOMMY BFF :)

They made me grow in a way where I feel I want to become a parent like them,

I have lived so many "KHUSHI KE PAL" with my mom & dad that looking back at my journey gives me smiles with tears :)

     *p.s this post is written for “Kellogg’s Chocos Ke Saath Khuljaye Bachpan” contest in association with  Kellogg India Private Ltd and Indiblogger.

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Mom's diary

My eyes got numb when I read my mom's diary,
it felt like she had taken out her heart and kept it inside this diary,
Its my birthday today and my grandpa gave me mom's diary as my birhday present.
The cover said My baby turned 15.
She died when I was 8 Grandpa tells me,
I was young,I remember how I wasn't able to believe  that she's never gonna open her eyes.
I don't get to meet my dad often,
he is a busy businessman,
meets me five six times in a year hardly
I miss mom!!
I read her diary and somehow I can feel pain inside,as if i really can't feel anything around but just feel something shattering deep inside.
She died because of acute depression,
she was living on anti-depressings but a stage came where she could not survive.
My dad was cheating on her,
she loved him,she loved dad unconditionally I said to myself.
I remember how she made each small lil effort for dad to give him the feel of that "EXTRA SPECIAL"
From those aroma candles in his study to the white carnations on his table,
from wearing his favourite blue to cooking his favourite mutton paya .
She just took care of evrything.
But he cheated on her....cheated on with another woman.
The lines ~
" My baby Akira,Happy birthday love
You are grown up my baby
I am not there beside you to share your teenage with you
but I will always adore you from wherever I am,
Don't hate your dad,because I know he loves you,probably he wont admit or express much but he does.
I know what all he has done to me isn't worth forgivness but at times we have to move on my child.
I could not survive because my love for him...I couldn't bear the pain of him being with someone or probably sharing the man I love with someone else.
He meant the world to me Akira,I loved him in the purest form and I don't regret that.
It was our destiny or probably the fate that all this happened but Its time to bid goodbye to all those bitter memories.
I will always love you and love him too..
       *P.s make sure you take care of your dad,
         and Do learn to cook mutton paya,he loves it.