The letters that I never sent~part 1

To the man I loved the most,
Its been a while now since we decided to stay apart,
but trust me these days have been more or less like ages,
Its not that I haven't been breathing or eating,
but somehow all this seems to be a mere compulsion now.
I know we are over,
I tell that to myself every night before sleeping....I don't remember when waiting to get some sleep din't turn from night to morning,
Sleepless seems to be just a word that can certainly describe the beginnings of my trauma
You were right baby,
you became everything that I ever wanted in my life,
and when you are gone,
its like losing the entire world in one moment.
I don't know how are you now,
but I seceretly sometimes wish you miss me too.....
I think I still love you.......
With love
From the woman who loved you the most