Strange...

Its not that I haven't known sadness before,

but I haven't known it the way I can feel it now.

I have felt depression before,

but I haven't felt something shattering inside me this way before.

I have let gone people earlier,

but I haven't felt such burden on my heart before.

I have faked a smile before,

but faking smile never felt so much pain before.

Life was never easy,

but it truly never felt like such an agony before.

P.S I Miss You

                                               We were meant to go on different paths,

                                                Apart ...alone....not together probably,

                                                Destiny's game may be,

                                                but still I won't forget those winters 

                                                where you kept me warm ...

                                                your touch..your warmth ...and most of all your love...

                                                P.S I miss you

Its my 100th  post on my blog :-) It feels so good
Thanks to everyone who read my work and made my blog worth :-)

Irony

Life is such an irony,

you keep on fighting those endless battles,

Be it guilt,anger,love or betrayal 

you fight to hold on

and then you fight to let go

Heart-the wild creature

Hearts are the wild creatures within us,
probably that is why our ribs are cages.

Detachment

Its a strange evening today,
an unusual evening I believe,
there is some detachment that I can feel all around me.
Detachment that seems to be making me feel hollow inside,
I dressed up for no one this evening,
I just felt like wearing the best gown in my wardrobe,
setting my hair in as perfect way as I could,
wore the best red heels I have ever had in my collection,
looking into that mirror applying that finest stroke of liner ,
the eyes are still red I whisper to myself.
There isn't anyone waiting tonight,
there isn't a horn I could hear outside home calling me,
there aren't any missed calls or waiting texts to be replied by me,
I can see the sun set from this window,
sipping his favourite wine I can recall all the words he said while leaving.
I recall that indifference in his eyes which I saw that night,
that night where my journey ended,
the journey called love.
This evening has that dark impact,
this sunset makes me feel detachment all over,
I have forgotten to smile from within,
I probably have forgotten to wake up with non-swelled up eyes,
I look perfect this evening but there isn't any perfection I feel inside.
Its a beautiful evening,
yet I just feel detachment all around,
probably I have detached from all possible sources of affection and happiness.
Its a strange evening,
an unusual one I believe.
  *p.s I saw this picture randomly somewhere and there were heaps of thoughts that came rushing into my mind seeing this,I wrote what ever my heart said :-) Take care everyone :-) *love*

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The crushing helplessness,
the dark night,
I don't know if this battle is even worth the fight.

Never ending insecurities of life

Insecurities of life,
they seem to be never ending,
You tend to loose yourself in this chase of life,
probably its a human nature,
How far you gonna go,
where will this journey end,
you can't predict,
yes you can make heaps of assumptions and perceptions,
but at the end of the day where do loose yourself in these unending battles?
I have no answers for these never ending hopeless questions and nor Do I have the strength to chase things any more,
I probably have learnt that sometimes let go is the only option you have,
not everything can be as per your expectations nor can everyone make you happy.
Everyone is going to hurt you sooner or later,
you just got to trace the ones who are worth it,
Not everything is meant to make sense but someday everything will make perfect sense,
someday even imperfect logics will sound perfect
and someday those shattered bits would give meaning to a selfless unconditional love,purity and a life that would make you feel solace.