HAPPINESS IS EXPENSIVE

I often find people around me always giving me heaps of suggestions and philosophical one liners about happiness,
some of  them  feel staying sad is my hobby maybe,
You can't really explain to the outer world how the inner sadness can actually cause a complete mental destruction,
People might be there to listen up your problems ,your issues,
but at the end it's only YOU alone who has to deal with the mess of life.
I grew up...I grew mature rather!
How sick sadness can make you make you feel...how disastrous the unhappiness in life can be!
You don't necessarily need heaps of reasons to be happy, but then you need at least one ? 
SOMETIMES things aren't wrong  but then they aren't right too.....may be not right enough to make you happy!!!
Happiness seems so expensive at times,
Happiness seems to be a prolonged hunger...the acute starvation ...
I haven't had my share of happiness till now may be....may be its too late to feel the thing called happiness....or may be my time is yet to begin..
At the end I would say just one thing "Happiness seems to be a myth at times"
 
 

I died within...you made me die..

You and me have come to an end
It has been long since I realized the fact we won't last,
Not that I din't know we were meant to end,
but may be I always tried to keep myself in the false hopes of thing called LOVE,
Post trauma of this breakup has been all the way more devastating although..
Not that I wasn't prepared for it..
but this much pain? ugghh
I feel pity for myself,
Last 5 years have been painful..being with you wasn't full of happiness but yet I found a home in that sadness itself!
I haven't have had the best of prince princess love stories with ya..nor i ever expected much,
But what about the endless efforts that I kept making for this bond of ours'
Life is moving at its fast pace..I am trying to move n catch up too..
But where am I?
Am I moving with it?or am I still stuck with those memories!!
People,friends,strangers all together are trying to make me move on..
I talk to unnecessary people just to divert maslf from the thought of depression!!!
Sooner or later we both will move on..but where is the real me?
Has he ever realized the essence of true me..the real me that has lost!!
He can see me smiling in pictures..he can see me with new friends..
But has he ever realized how pain lies inside me?
Has he ever tried to look inside the depth n see how suffocated I am...
Anyways......
He blames me for everything today..He feels I m not effected..
Can't he ever re-read our old conversations where I literally have begged him for his presence in ma life..
Life won't stop for the regrets I have..nor will it take me back to the past to make corrections!
But what about ma soul's death?
I have died within..I might be in a new life with the passage of time..But will I ever be able to give ma real self to someone again?
One broken relationship can suffocate you to death inside..But why few people can never realize that pain!!
I have suffered for you,with you..
But the pain is endless...your thankless attitude makes it worse!
I don't expect you to say sorry..but I at least expect you to feel the guilt ....The guilt of devastation you have caused....
In the end I have just one thing to say...I loved you like one else would love you ever!! Good luck!Have a great life!

 *p.s It's very important to value the relationships that are present in your life! Stop taking your loved ones for granted..The pain you cause for them is not bearable..believe me! take care all!

Voting using social apps!! well it's true

Indian general elections are about to approach soon,

India!!! country where Democracy prevails,

Democracy:-  Government of the people,by the people,for the people.

How important it is to vote?

How important it is to be the part of a nation which is a democracy?

India!! The country known for its  youth power and the "New generation"

The youth which defines the "X" factor.

How important is it for the youth to vote?

How much significance this youth holds in the growth of our nation

According to the recent reports over 65% of population is below 35 years of age.

India's present state is no more hidden from  young people today,

Youth has the last mile connectivity now-a tangible chance to make a change alive.

The more the young people vote,the more our concerns-modern,secular,progressive-will shape India's agenda.The youth is hence the best way out to break the vicious circle,sign up and vote.

There are hassles involved,but youth needs to rise and show their enthusiasm towards their nation's growth.

It's the time to use your energy #the troubles are small# the advantages are great#

Youth known for their social networking addictions with the changing times can make the most of it from these social networking applications itself.

We chat,whatsapp,line,viber,bbm,twitter,skype

just name it and the young people have all these applications in their phones.

How about voting  through social apps?

fun?easy?dream come true?

You are the change!!! Bring the change,utilize the change,work for the further change!!

Voting was never so easy,the way it has been made for the upcoming generations.

Casting a vote through a social networking app,

flexible,easy to access,less of hassles,more of comfort,more of participation,

Hence SUCCESS!!!!!

It's time to grow!!!grow as a nation,grow as a democracy,grow as humans,

and make INDIA,the upcoming developed economy with the best of government and constituency.

You want growth,governance,graciousness?

Go vote dude!!! Be proud to be the youth!!

THIS POST IS MY ENTRY FOR THE INDIAN GENERAL ELECTIONS WITH SOCIAL APPS CONTEST ORGANISED BY INDIBLOGGER.

The New friend....or may be more than that..

I had left hopes of being happy long ago....
trust me...really long ago...
Call it the miserable phases of life that I faced...or the adverse traumas of depression..
Whatever it was...it was the peak of disappointment life made me  face..
Life has it's own treasures ....well I feel so now..
Reason?? My new friend...friend who is miles away from me...
Friend who for now I cannot see..
But yet his presence is so warm,
He isn't here...nor is he near..
But his words are enough to make me feel the warmth of his friendship...his unconditional care,
being with him feels pure...
being with him feels secure..
I feel the urge to smile endlessly with his presence..
What has happened to me?
Am i falling too fast?or may be it's the time to just flow with this time?
Questions are many...but answer?
Well answer is just one...
YOU :)
Your presence has made me love myself...having you in life has made me realize that how beautiful I am..
This bond that you and me share....Its more than friendship...yet less than love...
I don't have perfect words to describe this bond that you n me share...
But its giving me heaps of happiness ....happiness that I always felt i was deprived of....
In the end I just know..You Make Me Feel Me :)
 *p.s I have been away from ma blog since very long due to my endless study and college stuff :( sorry to all the readers and followers.
This post was dedicated to ma lovable new friend :) AMAN :) love you heaps dumbo :*

The illogical me...

My heart always knew....
Knew the fact that you are gonna let me go..
But the foolish me kept hoping....
Hoping for you to change..
Change in a way that I always desired for..
It seems so illogical when I think how madly I chose the path for myself..
Path that I knew had no destination...
Destination that I thought would be my dreamland...
You have easily left..
Left the world I created for us...
It's my immaturity that has brought me to this phase..
I can't blame you..
Nor can I blame this destiny..
Whom am I to blame this for??
Ma dumbness?my senseless love?
My over expecting attitude?or is it me??
YES...the sole and the only  reason is me..

Fake!!

It's a world full of fake people..
You never know who is true enough to deal with all your positives and negatives..
It's a huge "Fake" world out there..
Full of pretentious people indeed!
It's you who got to stay strong and face life along with these creatures..
Someone rightly said "Few people just act like they are trying to help you"
   *p.s sometimes it really hurts how people for whom you did so much change in fractions of seconds and yet pretend they care >_<

The never ending love..

I have been badly dependent on you,
I know how it feels now,
How it kills when I realize how ruthless you have been to me,
How the thought of how you've been treating me makes me shivers,
It feels I am no one for you,
May be I never was,
Why were we together I don't get this though,
You have gone,
Gone far enough to make me even feel your essence in my life,
It hurts to see you doing well enough without me,
What hurts more is why do I still feel so deprived?
Am i addicted ?or is this mere attachment?
It's love..an endless form of love..which seems to be going on and on without considering the fact how much pain it is bringing along..
What kinda love is this?
A love that is never gonna end?
Or the love where you decide to be the sacrificial lamb throughout the life time..
 *p.s i am writing after a very long time and all i could do was just pour ma heart out in a single post as much as i could..love to all the regular readers n followers :)